I’m not really sure why I’m posting, but I don’t really have anyone to explain this to.

I went 7.5 years sober. Through that time I lost my Nan and my dog in that time, and on neither occasion did I even contemplate reaching for a drink. If anything, I was grateful I was sober.

Then 7 months ago, me and my family moved 4 hours away to be closer to my family who all had moved to the area.

Before the move I’d started thinking of drinking again, so I could at least come back to my home area to socialise with my best mate (how stupid is that after that much time!?). Ironically we don’t see each other much these days as family and work life can take up a lot time. But the relationship we had previously was heavily focussed on being at the pub. He has always been there on the end of the phone even though we don’t meet up often. Sadly I think it’s because I avoided doing so otherwise it would be obvious I wasn’t drinking anymore, like I was almost embarrassed.

We met up a couple of times beforehand, and he helped us move. I’d always kept my sobriety relatively private, as if it was more casual like I could occasionally drink than a big deal. Which wasn’t true and I’d hide it with an excuse like I’m driving, or up early the next day when we did meet up. It was more through fear that the friendship would somehow be worth less, now it wasn’t filled with the drinking side.

Anyway, within 2 weeks of relocating I found myself drinking for the first time. Almost so I could have a reason to have a reason to go back home and maintain that old social aspect of my life with my friend. It’s been 6.5 months since that first drink and I’m now back to drinking regularly. The heart palpitations and anxiety is awful and I feel so ashamed that I’ve let this get the better of me.
I’m not even sure if any of this even makes sense, and to be honest I’m trying to make sense of it all myself even now.

I guess what I’m trying to say, along with getting it off my chest somewhere, is please don’t ever get complacent. Treasure that time you’ve achieved. I was 100% convinced I’d beaten the addiction, yet it found its way back in at a time that didn’t even seem like a vulnerable point until now when I look back at it.

Day 1 completed again.

365 days of sobriety. That’s 365 days of controlling my life. I wanted to type out a story, but I’ll leave it at this. If you’re filled with emotions and scared about an alcohol free life, so was I. My days are brighter and my nights are calmer. I’m the greatest form of myself, as a father, as a husband, and as a friend. I live a life I’m proud of and I carry so much pride thinking I’ve accomplished something that has taken such a toll on my life.

One day at a time.

I found out that for some reason, if I write and sign a literal paper contract with myself in the morning, that I am able to decide to not drink later. This is the only way that I have found (so far) that prevents my doing the mental gymnastics in the evening, wherein I inevitably give in and get wasted. It feels so silly and arbitrary, but I just write in my journal:

“I ____ will not drink alcohol today” and sign/date it.

Then, whenever I have the urge, I just think “ah shit, can’t do that, bound by the contract.” It’s so silly but it has worked for a few days now. Hoping to keep it up for as long as possible. If anyone else is very forgetful/has ADHD, or is good at reasoning your way out of decisions you previously made, this might be a good thing to try!

Like many on the sub (I assume)...a few life altering events took place in a relatively short amount of time, and I turned to booze to ease the pain. And like many on the sub (again. I assume), it quickly took over my existence.

Worst run I had was a half gallon of JB Black in 36 hours (two weeks ago). The level of hell that I felt after that binge run is indescribable. Took 3 days to sleep that one off.

I know I've got a LONG road ahead of me...so I'm taking it one step/day at a time. And I'm using our collective experiences as a support network.

Nice to "meet" y'all.

Today marks 1 year of my sobriety. I got sober at this time last year after coming to the realization, after a blackout from an open bar wedding, that I didn’t have the self control to continue drinking in a healthy and safe way. I didn’t feel like an alcoholic but I couldn’t moderate my drinking. And looking back on it, I did things while drunk or blacked out that were extremely dangerous, self-destructive, and just downright stupid. Things I don't even want to write about here because I'm so ashamed of them. I was making poor decisions when I drank and was unable to follow the limits I set for myself.

I made a personal decision to quit drinking. I quit for my health, my well-being, and to regain control. I'm a person who has dealt with mental health issues my whole life on top of having an addictive personality (gambling and other vices remain issues that I'm still working on) so I knew full sobriety was my only path forward.

Thanks for reading, I'm pulling and rooting for each and every one of you and IWNDWYT

Ive been lone drinking for about 18 years. My idea of a great time is to boot up a video game and drink about 7-10 beers over the course of the night and try to escape to another place. I'd typically do this 1-3 times a week. This would fluctuate.

Recently I took a week off work and every afternoon about 17:00 I'd crack open a beer and start my night off. My partner of many years had been coming home from work during this week and we'd have some dinner and then she'd head off to bed as she could see what my plan was. Finally after a few days she came through the door, looked in the bin and saw a couple of cans and confronted me about the drinking. Telling me how she was concerned about the amount I drink, about my health and she asked if I might be skipping out on doing other things so I could stay home and drink.

Basically she called me out completely and it made me feel awful. She was obviously 100% right to do this. I think I had already come to terms with myself that I'm an alcoholic and needed to fix things years ago but this event really woke me up.

I know that if I carry on this way I will ruin this great relationship I'm in, continue to ruin my health and isolate myself more and more.

I suppose I'm just worried that I don't have the strength and willpower to fully stop drinking and need any advice that could help so I can start living a better life.

Welp! I made it. One month without a drink. It's wild. I had this whole post written out in my head yesterday. Then today happened. So I'm again, just shouting into the void.

The GOOD - I'm down 20lbs, my bloodwork came back significantly better, I'm sleeping through the night (even if it is only for 4 hours), my routine has improved, my skin and scalp look great, I'm cooking and baking almost everyday and seriously the money I'm saving is ridiculous.

The MEH - I still crave alcohol. Whenever I'm watching horror movies or jamming/singing, I just think about how much I revolved these activities around being drunk and enjoying them more. I'm dealing wity my depression, bipolar disorder and anxiety as best I can. I'm on a stupid long waitlist to get with a psychiatrist and a therapist. So right now, I'm just simply trying.

The STRUGGLE - I've realized I have AWFUL coping skills. I had a great day, super productive, taking care of my physical health, didn't hermit. Then I accidentally hit the side of my car on a pole in a parking garage and I seriously lost my shit. I was angry, mad, sad, pissed. I felt like a complete idiot. I just wanted to get a bottle and say fuck it. But, I didn't.

Today's celebration wasn't exactly what I was expecting, but I guess this is just what we call life.

Thanks to anyone who read this. IWNDWYT 🫂 💗

and I can be here on the couch with him, present and caring, caressing his head and holding him tight. As much as it sucks to see him so disappointed (it fucking hurts my guts and my heart), I am feeling almost euphoric that I can spend this evening sober and being the support he needs right now.

My first 69 days in 2 years ☺️ I’m proud of myself!

Today I celebrate one year without alcohol.
Thank you to this community for your help along the way!
It just keeps getting better.

Used to drink 375 ml bacardi or vodka every day for probably the last 6 years or so

This is the longest I have been without liquor or any drink

A little update: I just came back from the gym, looked in the mirror, and actually saw a twinkle in my eyes. First time I have seen light in my eyes in a very long time! My face is looking a bit slimmer, and I can see my jawline better

This is probably one of the heavier weights I have been through my life due to getting off alcohol and binge eating sweets and getting my appetite back, but it's not all fat. I'm bulky. I have good muscle too due to lifting for years, but hopefully, I get slimmer, which is the goal, haha!

I'm very excited as I keep up my sobriety!

IWDWYTD!

I will be a year sober on 12/25 (Christmas was not on purpose, it just happened that way), and I am wanting to do something to celebrate the occasion. I know I am still a couple of months out, but with the holidays, I figured getting started early wouldn't hurt.

So the question here is two part -

1. Did you celebrate your 1 year birthday?

2. If you do, what did you do?

Last night I drank for the first time in almost two months, I wrote done a draft on here to describe how I was feeling

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I know I'm not supposed to post when I'm not sober, so I'm writing this part as a draft, and maybe I'll post it when I'm sober, maybe I won't.

This is just a reminder for me that I don't want to do this again. It's not awful, but I would have had more fun tonight if I didn't drink. I feel hot and sweaty. I ate too much, and made one of my weird drunk dishes that I ate about half of before throwing the rest away. I don't like being like this. I thought I had more fun when I was drunk, but this just kinda sucks. I've only had two ciders, so I'm nowhere near as drunk as I used to get, but I'd still rather be sober. I see tonight as less of a failure and more of a reminder that I really don't need to drink.

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This morning I'm not feeling too great. My stomach feels weird and I was shaky when I first woke up. My dreams weren't as pleasant as they usually are. I didn't have some big dramatic relapse last night, just a reminder that I'm better off not drinking.

this is my first post in this community! i’m new here and new to sobriety as well.

for context, i’m in my early 20’s. i decided to quit drinking after some years with a very unhealthy relationship with alcohol, it made me hate myself. i’m two weeks sober today! i know it’s not much, but i’m proud of myself. it’s the first time in years that i’ve gone that much time without it.

the reason why i’m writing this post is because i don’t know what to say to my friends (and people in general) when they ask me why i’m not drinking. the excuse i’ve been saying is that “i’m feeling sick” or something like that, but it only can get me so far.

i really wanted this journey to be private. i feel ashamed to be sober in such a early age, where everyone seems to be drinking and partying and having fun, and i can’t have that because i don’t know how to drink in moderation. i’m scared of telling friends because what if i relapse? what if i can’t do it? i’m afraid to tell my friends i quit just for them to find me drunk some time later and be disappointed.

that’s why i didn’t want anyone to know. so far, i told very few close friends that i stopped, but tried to make it look like it’s not that big of a deal (when, in reality, it’s a massive thing). but when i’m with other friends or groups in general i don’t know what to say when they offer me alcohol.

i feel stupid because i’m known to be a “heavy drinker” (or, to some people who also drink a lot, “a great company to drink with”), and now i just suddenly… stopped. it looks weird, but i didn’t want my sobriety to be open to other people.

alcohol is so normalized when you’re young that they look at you like you’re crazy for turning it down. i don’t want to tell them that i can’t drink because i’ll never stop and i’ll end up blacked out and ruining the night. but my excuses are not sticking so much because i can’t “feel sick” all the time.

what do you guys say in situations like these? i know that there’s a difference between talking to friends, to acquaintances and to strangers, but i don’t what to say at all. i thought about saying that i’m on some medication, but i don’t know if i would know what to say if someone start to ask more details about it.

i’m sorry for the long post. even though i’m new to this community, i felt safe enough to open up about things i’ve been thinking about. i wanted to know how you dealt with questions in the early weeks. i feel really lonely and ashamed.

iwndwyt

I'm pretty happy with 90 days. I don't think anyone in my life (who knows I have gone sober) appreciates the mental strength needed to hit this goal. But I am happy. That being said I need to just get things off my chest right now.

I've found time (and more importantly interest) in new things but thry are frustrating! I've taken up fishing but can't get out at good times to fish. I feel like I am always rushing from one thing to the next - trying to slow things down and get them done right feels nice but is so hard. I washed my car today a d took the time to get it nice and clean. Thst feels good. I flew my drone for work a d pleasure (I like thst I can fly for work it is fun). I lost a fishing bottom right at a new spot but I enjoyed being near the water.

My.oldest kid didn't do a single chore around the house and thst frustrated me. Why do I always need to remind her to walk the dog (and really walk him not just 2 minutes for show). And I pick my.youngest up for sports and thry just want to complain to me and make me feel like a shitty parent (which hut a nerve and I yelled and was made so then I felt doubly shitty). And there is no time for.me.to get dinner on the table and my frustration made me skip exercise. Ugh. There is just too much.

OK. Thanks for letting me.get thst off my chest. Let me go reconnect with the youngest and show I am not a bad dad.

It's day one for this wine mum and I would love some inspiration to keep me going over what I'm sure will be a very tricky first week. My drinking has ramped up since having my second little one and it's definitely time to call it a day. Wine has made me fat, miserable, lethargic, and impacted my looks and self-esteem, and I'm not having fun anymore—honestly, it was time.

Please share any wins no matter how small and silly you have gained since putting down the bottle to give me something to look forward to!

I’m sorry if this isn’t allowed. I myself am only suffering adjacently from alcoholism.

I lost one of my best friends yesterday.

I only knew him 4 years of my life but I knew he would be a friend forever. He was the most solid, honest, down to earth, true friend I ever had.

He was found in his home yesterday by a family member, died from choking on his own vomit after passing out drunk in the bathroom.

I knew he had an unhealthy relationship with alcohol but I never thought it could end the way that it did.

Again I’m sorry if this isn’t allowed and please remove if so; I just needed to write this and I thought this community might understand at a deeper level than I can.

Hi everyone…
I’m a 48yo woman, healthy eater, physically active/fit, I’m doing everything “right”…. Except for my drinking habits.
I’m averaging a bottle of wine an evening during the week. On weekend days, I start drinking earlier in the day and usually end up drinking more than one bottle.
I want to cut back. I’m scared of the withdrawal symptoms (and yes, Im aware of the irony of being scared of the physical symptoms that may result from stopping something that already making me feel like sh!t physically)
Can anyone speak to this? Similar lifestyle, similar habits? I know everyone is different and futures can’t be predicted, but shared personal experiences may help. ChatGPT only served to scare me

Wooo! I'm very depressed, I lost my best friend, the girl I was talking to been ghosting BUT I'm not drinking.

My brother passed away 20 years ago on Halloween. I was 4 I have memory's from 2 onwards. It's always hard this month. This my second sober October. Both feeling proud and sad. Only thing keeping me sane is the gym and diet sodas

Much love everyone

Just read them, or listen to them on audible. I read Allen Carr’s first and then This Naked Mind, but I think This Naked Mind might better for the majority. Anyway. Read them. I had no idea how much easier this would be if I removed conditioning. And once you are aware of the illusions, they are HARD to unsee.

I have been a drinker since I was 12. I’m now 28. Since I turned 24, I realized I wasn’t able to quit, and it went from hehe college blacking out to a real issue and it was fucking horrible. For the last year, it escalated to the point where I actually was so miserable and I couldn’t find the joy in ANYTHING and since I knew my drinking was a problem, even drinking didn’t provide relief anymore. Alcohol has robbed so many years of my life and stripped away everything I ever enjoyed by putting itself as my number one priority. Both of these books explained to me why this happened. I have not had a craving since finishing them. It’s only been a month, but I haven’t not had a craving in over ten years—even when I went 6-8 month periods of abstaining—until reading these.

There really is nothing to lose. This is the first time in my drinking career that I’ve ever felt free. Give it a shot.

I was so excited for this movie to come out. Bought tickets to see it in one of those nice theaters with recliners and food/drink. Ended up getting shithoused, being a loud jackass in the theater, and not remembering the movie at all. 26 days sober, just started the movie. Gonna eat some soup and grilled cheese, remember my movie, and wake up feeling good for work tomorrow. That is all. Cheers everyone.

With booze, even before, I used to be a very different person. I had energy and charisma. Now I'm dull. Peoples eyes kind of glaze over and they yawn at me. I thought I was going nuts but I feel like I died. I dont get the I have so much energy hype of sobriety.

i originally just wanted to do 30 days and see if i could... somehow i'm at 68 now.

i'm 20F, a Bosnian girl studying in the US, and honestly i didn't think i'd stick with it this long. i know 68 days isn't forever or anything, but it feels good to actually follow through on something i started.

still figuring things out and definitely don't have my life together lol, but yeah... kinda proud of myself for this one.

Tomorrow will be my third day. I tried multiple times over the past couple of months once I Started to feel like it was getting out of hand, but now my partner is involved with it because it actually affected her this time.

I am 30 and didn’t notice daily beers/cocktails catching up to me. Starting as a few drinks after work to unwind. To losing hobbies that I loved because I’d rather go to a bar. To hiding myself doing a couple of shots in the morning because I had to get rid of the anxiety.

I knew what I was doing wasn’t right so I tried to “cut back”. Only with other people, never alone, type of lies you tell yourself. And I guess I didn’t want to believe that they were lies.

Well this past weekend I blacked out at a club with a dead phone and my partner had no idea where I was. It started for me with a night with friends, a couple of drinks, but after everyone went home and I was in my uber I changed the direction to go back to a club alone to continue to drink.

I got the ultimatum the next day from her saying it’s me or this lifestyle. I am so fearful of becoming a lifelong alcoholic and losing people/myself to this which is something that has been very common in my family unfortunately.

Tomorrow is my third day. I got through 2 bad days of anxiety and awful sleep and guilt and self disgust. I find it crazy to look back and realize that if I hit 4 days it will be the longest I’ve done it in probably 7-8 years. I never realized that.

It helps me to write this out and I appreciate all the posts in here.