I'm not sure if this would be suitable for this sub, I hope it is. And sorry, this is probably not going to be coherent or well-written, and it's likely going to get long. I don't want to get political, so please respect that. I'm just genuinely scared and wanted to get it off my chest.

I live in Iran. In Tehran, the capital. We've had two major wars in our country recently, and the last one never really ended. We have been living under the shadow of the war ever since it started (28th if February I guess; but even for months before then, there were rumours about this war). Only two months before the last war, some protests started (due to the terrifying situation of the economics) and more than 40 thousand people were killed during them, and to this day, people are being executed for the protests. This year has been truly horrifying. I'm just going to vent about the affect it had on me, but obviously there were people who had it way, way worse.

They shut down the internet. Completely. For NINETY days (meaning way past the ceasefire). We had absolutely no way of using the international internet (not even Google), and we only had access to some trashy national applications, which were heavily censored and moderated. We couldn't have access to the news. They didn't even evacuate the places that were going to get bombed, and didn't inform people about it. That's the level I'm talking about. (Of course, even now that we do have access to international internet, it's all banned (as for the past decade) needing to be accessed through VPNs).

It was awful. We couldn't leave the house. We had no internet. Nothing to do, but to hear all the sounds of the bombs and the missiles, and wondering if any of the people we know was dead due to them. It was terrifying just thinking about losing people, especially if a missile hit near their houses. You can't imagine the stress of calling a friend and waiting impatiently for them to answer praying they're alive and safe.

We couldn't sleep at nights, but the days weren't much better either. I had to take melatonin pills almost every day to get a few hours of uneasy sleep. On top of antidepressants and propranolols. I was dealing with severe stress, and was considered unbothered by it by others' standards. (People were truly having it way worse than me mantally). I gained 15 kilograms (\\\~33 lbs) due to the overeating caused by the stress. I haven't been able to lose the weight even after months.

No one has really recovered from the previous wars. We all have trauma and PTSD. A simple noise, dropping something, constructors working, etc is enough to truger most people even now.

We all know the problem hasn't been solved, and were expecting another war sooner or later. It seems like it's going to happen very very soon, maybe even in a few days. For the last couple of weeks, I've been checking my phone every few minutes to know if the war has broken out or not, even in the middle of the night. And it's only getting worse. Also, they have explicitly said that we will face another internet shutdown the minute the war breaks out. So again, we won't even have any internet access. We are going to be locked in our homes without baing able to have interactions with anyone, without being notified of the news, without having anything to do other than worry about things.

I can have another long rant about the economics, but I'll just say that it was getting worse and worse even before the war, and after that it's pretty much unlivable. Everything is doubled or even tripled in price. Nothing is affordable. The salaries are a joke compared to the costs. You can't truly imagine. The minimum montly vage is $61, the average minimum monthly vage in major cities is $148. The cost of living is lower than some other countries obviously, but not by much. 40% of the population is considered below the poverty line.

I don't know if anyone reads all this. If you did, thank you! And sorry for the unnecessary rant. I'm just scared and tired of this situation. I'm dealing with severe anxiety and depression on top of thag (not all of it is because of the war, it's just getting amplified). My heart rate is rising with even writing these and I might need to take a pill.

I'm scared of the war and I know it's probably coming very soon. Possibly in these few days. And I'm scared of the internet shutdown as well, our internet connection has gotten so so slow already.

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