Am I a narcissist?
Well, let me explain why I think it, and my life philosophy. I'm 17 years old, and my purpose in life, is enjoying and having pleasurable experiences. Not just like having a family and kids and that, even though I'll probably end up doing it, but I also was looking for stuff like smoking, because it's addictive and good, or jumping in parachute for the adrenaline, or girls, and stuff like that. My dream is to be in a yatch with woman, smoking and enjoying, of course it's not like something I plan on doing, but it's a juice scenario. Let's talk about what do I think of myself. I think of myself as a comparison to Jesus, or maybe even some sort of antichrist? Let me explain: I think I'm capable of my own "miracles" if I put enough effort into anything, like I could be the president of the USA with enought effort, a LOT of it but I technically could, or basically anything there is, same as Jesus, right? It's a comparison, not literal. And the antichrist part is because I do NOT care about others THAT much like Jesus. I think of myself higher than everyone, though I recognize there's smarter and stronger people I know and even admire in some sense, or envy. I put myself on top of everything even God, or at the same level. I don't really respect morals THAT much, and I put my morals in what I would and wouldn't do, but I wouldn't judge people of they're murderers or robbers meanwhile they didn't affect me. I despise people who don't follow their dreams or their "ego", except if they're following MY dream or ego, then yeah it's okay because they're helpful. I'm super kind with others and literally everyone I know likes me, because I'm calm helpful chill and respectful, even though in the interior I'm a bit wilder. I love the "survival of the fittest" idea, and I respect the strong or smart, not much the weak or dumb. Like, if you're poor? Skill issue, I could get out of that situation (that is related to the I'm capable of everything thing) I know it's like weird, maybe wrong, but hey, I don't mean to offend anyone, I'm just seeking opinions and exploring stuff